Why?

One might say I only write on this blog when "bad" things happen. That might be true but I don't want to burden the few friends I have with my whining and such. This is a place I can vent my hurts, questions, and complaints without damaging others. WHY LORD? I want to scream and cry tonight. Well, I have cried. My Steven and Saira have lost their third baby before birth. WHY?  John and I even bargained with God this time to take one of us first and let this little one live a full and healthy life. That answer was no - our grandson died today. This little one was almost 20 weeks in his mother's womb, we all loved him very much already. But now he is gone to live with the angels. What horror still awaits both of them as the rest of the process of loss still has to take place. I can barely tolerate the thought of this. The last time she waited 3 days in the hospital to pass the little precious one. I am not "angry" at God but I DO WONDER what in the world is happening? Why must this young couple endure such pain and hurt? My oldest daughter also lost a baby around 20 weeks, but at least they had another child to hold to ease this horrible pain, and unknown to them two more babies would follow. It seems so cruel to take this little on from the parents who would love him so much forever. It is certain everyone who wants a child and loses them feels similar, if not the same. WHY? Why LORD Why? I think there will be many entries about this before my heart has healed. LORD please comfort this young couple and bring them some unknown peace during this most difficult and unbelievable time. Good-Bye little boy that we didn't even have a chance to hold ... We will still love you forever and always, just like your brother.